A white blank page and a swelling rage.

Although my situation is in no wait pertaining to the song, this line truly does explain this foggy stage in my life. Lately, I have been faced with question after question of who it is that I am and what it is that I plan on doing with this life of mine. I feel as though God has given me a fresh start. He has wiped my horrible track record clean (and thankfully does so every day), and has placed me in a position where He is waiting for me to make the first move. I have never been good at chess, and I must say that this first step of mine is a hard one to choose. I wouldn't necessarily say that I'm filled with a swelling rage, but man, oh man, am I feeling the heat!

I am a white blank page. He has given me the pen and sent me off to discover who it is that I am, what it is that I will stand for, and where it is that I will take this life of mine. Oh, the world and it's lies! I've tried time and time again to answer these questions myself. As if I'm going to find an answer that is more clear that Christ Himself! Pity should in no way be granted to a situation of insanity.

After weeks of being at a spiritual stand still, pondering my life in all it's mystery, I am finally easing my way back into this race of mine. All I have to stand on is what His majestic Word says of me.
I am beautiful. I am chosen. I am dearly loved.

"Forgiven. Beloved. Hidden in Christ. Made in the image of the Giver of life. Righteous and Holy. Reborn and Remade. Accepted and worthy; this is our new name. This is who we are now." - Jason Gray, I am new.

Well then, I guess I'm not a white blank page after all.