I locked myself out of the restroom tonight. This is what God taught me.

Sometimes in life, a great opportunity comes to the door. Us, being the impatient baboons that we are, generally become overwhelmed with excitement to the point of going ahead and attempting to see what is on the other side! Only, we notice that the door is locked.

Out eagerness overwhelms us as we search for anything and everything in order to get that darn door open! We use bobby pins, screws, hammers... forcefully trying to get to what's on the other side. At times, our yearning for what is on the other side blinds us from seeing how much damage we have created. Almost to the point of no return, really. All the while, there's God, patiently waiting off to the side for us to finally let Him have a go.

We curse the situation and Him, even, for locking the door in the first place. We become so overcome with the situation that we forget that He has the key we need in order to get to the other side! After what seems like ages of stubbornness resulting in a bigger mess than before, we finally give in. We finally let God take control. He looks at that mess, smiles, and dusts it all off. He takes every piece that had been broken in our attempts for happiness and fulfillment, and replaces them with all things new. Complete restoration, just like that.


Now, He might not open that door for you right away, but please friends, be patient. He knows when the time is right. And trust me! Those tears, the mess, the wait; it'll all be worth it in the end.

God and The Giant Water Balloon

First off: This  post wasn't intended for my Blogger. It was just something I shared over on my Tumblr sort of spur of the moment. I didn't proof read, and I sure as heck didn't make any sense! Haha. Just thought I'd give you all a heads up.

Waking up this morning felt great. I felt like God was going to do something spectacular, and oh, He did!

After officially waking up, I grabbed my phone and went to YouVersion (best Bible App in the world!!! Go get it NOW!) and read a few of my bible reading plans. I continued on scrolling down the long list I had and pretty much deleted all but 2. Now, I have been saved for about 6 years now and have yet to read the entire Bible. I know, my stoning will be held after the completion of this post. I decided I was finally going to go for it. The big bang!! Read the entire Bible……scary, I know…. I found a Chronological reading plan and lo and behold, Genesis was up first!

Now, I’ve remembered the first 10 verses of Genesis 1 because I chose them back at Masters Commission for one of my scripture memory tests. I always get big headed about me finally being able to remember something other than my name, and pretty much just quote it in a robotic way when ever I’m faced with the self-brought challenge to read them. When I started doing this very thing, I stopped dead in my tracks.

I need to take this in. I need to truly listen and take heart. I’m not doing it just to pass a test, but to learn about my God and His wonderful ways.
I took a deep breathe and started over. I stopped around this very passage:

“And God said, “Let there be an expanse between the waters to separate water from water.” So God made the expanse and separated the water under the expanse from the water above it. And it was so. God called the expanse “sky.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the second day.”
Genesis 1:6-8

I don’t know about you, but this completely blows my mind! I never understood it until a friend of mine back at Master’s took the time to explain His workmanship to me. You see, back in Noah’s day, ever since the beginning of time, The earth was pretty much a bubble boy. There was the earth in the center, and in the outskirts was an inside out bag full of water. Separating the two? Sky. Yeah, a massive, “What the heck?!?!!” is pretty much needed right about now.

I mean, I don’t know much more, but most scientist and scholars agree that this was an actual occurrence. After all, have you ever wondered where all that water during Noah’s 40 day flood came from? Yup, God got so mad at the human race that He decided to pop the giant inside out water balloon. Score 1 billion for Jesus!

It amazes me that God even thought of this. It amazes me that there was ever such thing as a bubble earth! This is just one little insight to His creativeness that He has allowed us to see. Wow. I stand in awe of You, God. Teach me more.I'm excited to dissect God's word! It might take me a while to truly get it, but I know that along the way, I will finally get to know more about this man I call my Savior. <3 Let's do this.

Open up your heart and let me in.

I would be lying if I said that letting God in is an easy thing to do.
I guess in my walk, this has been a reoccurring problem since the start. This time around, it's as though there has been a short, stumpy, pointless brick wall placed to hold me back from truly receiving the fullness of His love. That stubby old wall? I created it.

It's in our sinful nature to hold ourselves back from giving in to God. But we must remember that in God, we are made new, therefore, we are no longer who we use to be. We no longer have to face the horrible fires of life on our own, for God will never forsake us.

For me to open up my heart, I see is as placing everything on the line for His cause. I see it as truly forgetting my wants and desires and vowing to stay on the path He has paved for me. I see none of me, and all of Him. To dwell so thick within His presence and be set apart in such a Holy matter that regardless of this horrible world and horrible problems, there will be me, bearing this supernatural peace above all else, because I have been with Him.

I'm a sinner made a saint because of what Christ given me. I screw up every single day and get spiritually slapped by God more often than not.

"For me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." - Philippians 1:21.

I stand on this scripture. I truly do. My life without Christ can never amount to anything. Opening my heart and in all actuality, leaving it in His hands is a scary thought. At the end of the day, there is no room for compromise nor justification when on this long road home.
I die to myself so that You, my God, may live. I am aching with love for You.

"It's gonna be wild. It's gonna be great. It's gonna be full of Me." - Let me in, United Pursuit Band.

I wouldn't have it any other way. This is me. Stepping into the light, moving out of the shadows; my heart is ready.

A white blank page and a swelling rage.

Although my situation is in no wait pertaining to the song, this line truly does explain this foggy stage in my life. Lately, I have been faced with question after question of who it is that I am and what it is that I plan on doing with this life of mine. I feel as though God has given me a fresh start. He has wiped my horrible track record clean (and thankfully does so every day), and has placed me in a position where He is waiting for me to make the first move. I have never been good at chess, and I must say that this first step of mine is a hard one to choose. I wouldn't necessarily say that I'm filled with a swelling rage, but man, oh man, am I feeling the heat!

I am a white blank page. He has given me the pen and sent me off to discover who it is that I am, what it is that I will stand for, and where it is that I will take this life of mine. Oh, the world and it's lies! I've tried time and time again to answer these questions myself. As if I'm going to find an answer that is more clear that Christ Himself! Pity should in no way be granted to a situation of insanity.

After weeks of being at a spiritual stand still, pondering my life in all it's mystery, I am finally easing my way back into this race of mine. All I have to stand on is what His majestic Word says of me.
I am beautiful. I am chosen. I am dearly loved.

"Forgiven. Beloved. Hidden in Christ. Made in the image of the Giver of life. Righteous and Holy. Reborn and Remade. Accepted and worthy; this is our new name. This is who we are now." - Jason Gray, I am new.

Well then, I guess I'm not a white blank page after all.

Let's start this off right;

Father God,
I just come to you right now and thank you for this marvelous oppurtunity you have laid out before me. I pray that in the weeks and months and years to come, you would help me to completely walk in your will. I know you are a big God and believe with everything that I am that the greatness you have in store for me is barely even getting started! I pray that every single word I speak would be filled with nothing but your truth! Let your words touch and change the lives of those who come across them! You know exactly what is needed to be said and tackled, and in Jesus name, I know that myself and others will truly be blessed by this! I pray for strength for those who read these posts and for me, honest courage to share whatever it is you will for me to share about my own personal walk with you. Help me to understand the power behind my words. Lord, let this be you, not me, in every single aspect of this journey. I thank you and Praise You for all you have done and are about to do!! I love you, my wonderful, wonderful King!!

I pray this all in your Holy and Precious name,

Amen. :)